In our life spans, we all go through bad & good periods (some more or less). I am not a negative person, so when I say this I am just being real. I feel that my bad outweighs the good. I am especially feeling that now, because for the past 2 weeks I have been looking through my journals. Reading and hearing the hurt through my own words brought up a lot of unwanted feelings. Feelings of hurt, depression, anger, betrayal and mental exhaustion. I know these feelings aren’t here to stay, if I was able to overcome them once, I can do it again. I have worked too hard to get where I am today, God has worked hard on my behalf and I am not going to disappoint him. I am going to press on, and follow God’s directions.
I am tackling this full force and I’m praying hard over this, day and night. I am not going to let Satan take me down, or slow down the process of my journey, as this is what he wants. I am so glad that I am wiser now and I can see when it is Satan trying to intervene with my happiness, I may not see it right away but it clicks shortly after. A few years ago, I would have succumbed to the fear & depression. We all need to be aware of our feelings, when we acknowledge that something feels off within us, we need to declare victory. He senses our vulnerability and attacks, usually when we are excelling and have peace and joy. Other times, he jumps in when we are feeling low. This is when we leave ourselves wide open, unknowingly inviting him in. Don’t let him take away your courage or put doubt and fear back in your life. Instead, stand up against him and pray “Oh Heavenly Father, Thank you for fighting my battles, Thank you for placing my enemies under my feet”. Tell Satan “Satan, get behind me” there is no room for you here. Declare it out loud and continue to do so until you feel peace again.
When he started to attack me, putting negative thoughts back n my head. Telling me, remember these words that you have written here; you are no good, you are unworthy, your are stupid, you will fail at everything you do. He wanted me to roll over and curl up in a ball. He sees where God is taking me and he doesn’t like it. He knows as well as I do that God is calling me to do his work, he’s working to propel me forward to do great things. He took what was meant to harm me and is turning it into the good, for others. God is our protector and healer, I know this for a fact. God has fought so many battles for me and he’s not about to stop. So Satan get behind me! Our Father loves us unconditionally and he’s more than happy to put our enemies under our feet!
Matthew 16:23; Jesus turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me Satan”! You are a stumbling block to me. For your thoughts are not of the things of God, but the things of men.
Hebrews 12:15; See to it that no one falls short of the grace of God and that no root of bitterness springs up; causing trouble and defiling many.
I admire your courage and openness. I can all too well relate to what you have been through. But God! I do believe He restores for the years the locust have eaten and He has good plans for your life.
Thank you for your encouraging words,Diane. I was a little reluctant to being so open, as I never want me Ex to see this. But I decided that if my stories can help someone than I won’t hold anything back. Undoubtedly, God wants me to use my past hurts for something good. I love your statement “He restores for the years the locust have eaten and he has good plans for your life”. I never heard that analogy before, so Thank you! Blessings to you and your journey, Kathy